there were so many people in my house the last 2 evenings. i am back home from budapest, i have things to do and i'm doing a pretty good job. this evening i had to "mediate" a therapy session between my cousin and his mother. they both cried and i almost cried too. actually their life is hard. different. they are handling it. a good friend of mine, that's taking care of my teeth too :) says that we don't even know how much we, humans, can endure. i guess we don't, and i guess we're far stronger than we think we are. how did i come to write this? :)
i think i had a great year last year. this year will be the year of choices. job and voluntary work and other projects and personal life and myself.. and as jean michel used to say "tout choix est un renoncement" - "every choice is also an abandon".
i had a great year last year. there are many beautiful moments to remember. there's all the things that happened, the new job, the places, friends, and..
and this year, the beginning of it.. there were things that made me so sad. and this feeling i have.. this year, some of the battles will be lost, i should know better already. i'll handle it, just don't tell me how beautiful life is. some of the battles, i won't fight them anymore. they're lost anyway. look around you. look.. wake up.. look.. stop taking things for granted.. if you don't see it, it's only because you don't wanna see it..
good night, patratel.
spring is here. and then there will be summer, and autumn.. and you'll survive.